I am still taken with all the reactions of yesterday, in regards to Abu Mazen participation in Peres’s funeral.
I am not sure if I need to put any word of ration to explain all the rage we Palestinians experienced yesterday. There are many things that remain symbolic in life, and among them in the best scenarios of a peaceful solution, forgetfulness is not related to forgiveness.
We can assume that Peres died as a man of peace, which is of course by all means not right, each time I mention the word Peres, what I see in front of my eyes is Qana massacre in 1996, two years after his receiving the proper price for peace. We can assume life and peace are prospering, among a death of a man like him; I cannot, as a Palestinian is a part of. This should be a rule. I don’t think Peres would have wanted to participate in Abbas’s funeral.
But let me try to be calm and rational now. I have to say I expressed myself enough yesterday. Each time I saw a video of the funeral with the Palestinian delegation was just getting furious and automatically post something mad. My rage ended in writing an article under the title of Abbas does not represent me which unexpectedly was published on Ra’y al-Yom which made it become a real statement and thus my word press was booming since yesterday … it did I want to become famous, but I don’t want to get killed. I was very satisfied.
In the morning I was awakened from an SMS from a friend of mine whom I have of course mentioned in my article of yesterday. He happened to be in the delegation!!!!! And I happened to have used fixed harsh terms on the commission … for a moment I felt oooooh’s… I have to say I thought about him, especially that we have just talked a couple of days before. This made me in a way rethink what happened yesterday. There are no words to rationalize or justify what they did. And there is nothing to offer us as a new discourse. But yet there was this rational person in me who despite being extremely mad, still want a way out from al this. In a relatively just human solution.
But ration dose does not seem to be what triggers the authority and whoever are still following it. The day started with the news of arresting an official who expressed his dissatisfaction with what happened yesterday. He was immediately dismissed and arrested. This act of terrorizing people is not the solution. Or won’t serves to any settlement. There were many clear explanations from media people that only made people get mad. And worse, there was an official statement by the preventive security on their Facebook page to track and attack whoever is not abiding by the law and criticizing the president. This was not the worse part. I entered that page to see the comments that were written. I felt I belonged to different people.
It is mainly such people that the president and his mob address and somehow they think this is the population. I felt like being inside a military regime as if Israel’s military enforcement on us is not enough.
It seems fearful in many ways, living under a regime that is more of police and security also enforced on how we feel.
But it remains painful more than the fear it may entail, seeing such a deterioration in the Palestinian fabric. A decline that resulted from years of corruption that made us become all part of this decay.


2 thoughts on “A decay in the Palestinian fabric….
  1. Reblogged this on Ned Hamson's Second Line View of the News and commented:
    Occupation wears on everyone – the occupied, the occupier, the watchers, the reporters, the land. Goodness and grace are never entirely worn out but harder to see and feel as the grayness of denial blurs everything. Being able to feel anger and remorse are good signs that you are still alive, capable of being hurt and willing to risk for love, grace, and mercy.

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  2. there is this feeling of numbness… lots of layers of frustration and fear

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